Alone

This room is full of people
yet I feel alone
This room is full of people
I am so alone

I want some recognition
but it will never find me
I want some recognition
but I am so blind

The cold is spreading around me
the pain is deep inside
the warmth is not for me to find

PPST

I have just taken my PRAXIS Exam for teacher education. It is also known as the PPST. I am at the library again and I am watching music videos...again. I am not going to get ahead this summer at all. I am barely getting by. I wish I had gone home to mobridge. I could have stayed in my own house and been just fine. I am so bummed. And I didn't even find a decent guy to share my summer with. I at least got my computer back and fixed. I just waste time in as many ways as possible. I think that the apartment I live in is one of the loneliest places in the world!! It is raining today so I can't ride my bike which I really wanted to do! Oh well, I have a little bit of gas. Oh I hope this fall is better and I can get my credit cards paid off! I do hate money just like always. I wish I had cable at the apartment or internet. Oh Well whatever. Well I have to go now I don't have any funny or interesting stories today. I know I am boring.

The terror!

My brother died this past sunday night-monday morning. He was found cold and dead on his bed. The idea of suicide was discussed by a few of his freinds at live journal and they ruled it out. It had to do with an insulin reaction. He was a diabetic. Some say he did not take care of it and that he was depressed. I am just very shaken up. I don't really beleive it yet. I have erected a memorial website. Feel free to help with it or just observe it. To help just login at www.bravenet.com as raginsmemorial and the password is ragin! http://ragin.bravehost.com

Midnight Confessions

Greetings to the world of bloggers!
I am new to this so bear with me.
I will be posting rather infrequently,
but after this one they will hopefully
be better constructed and maybe
I will write a live novel or poetry
once in a while. Good night.